I am random

My dreams

2012-02-09T08:17:00.000-08:00

With no doubt this is what I want to do.
Architecture,
As long as I can remember, this is definitely what I want to do.

But Im not sure if this is what I want to do for living.
I want to be an architect, I really do.
But to imagine,
living 30 years of my life, by working,
day till night,
doesnt feel right.

Truth is, Im a lady.
I want to be a mother,
I want to be there for my husband.
but, I dont want to be too dependent on anyone.

I know, I know,
It's too early for me talk or even think about this,
But I couldnt help to think about this,
everytime I get off late from the studio.

But anyways, I know,
right now Im the right track,
As for the future,
Im living one day on a time.

Let's stop.

2012-02-09T07:43:00.000-08:00

All this games,
Feelings we're playing,
Lets stop.

Cause I might be falling for you.
And you wont be there to catch.
So, dont play me.

You're a nice,
good-looking,
alim,
almost perfect guy.

I've been drawing lines,
limit myself from you,
but I might get over board these days,

So, as im pulling back.
I begging,
Dont play me.

Shmily.

2012-01-19T16:46:00.000-08:00

'If You ask me, how Im doing?

I would say Im doing just fine,

I would lie and say that your not on my mind'

'In another life,

I would be you girl,

We'll keep all our promises,

be us against the world.'

I can only imagine how painful these songs are.

Being on my own vs forever alone

2011-12-07T03:45:00.000-08:00

You dont have to know me to see that I always alone,
I love to walk on my own,
I dont know why honestly
Im not like this during my school days,
I was that load girl who runs around in the canteen and talks with anyone that she wants too

Now,
Not that I hate being in a crowd,
I just find it uncomfortable.

But I still love my people with all my heart though :)
So, forgive me if you're offended,
Saya tak sombong, langsung.

In fact, one of the reason why I love to walk alone is,
to randomly meet anyone at talk,
:)

"Shaa, why am I always on my own?"
"Because He knows that you're strong enough"

Studio Life

2011-12-06T09:54:00.000-08:00

We got the studio for less than a week.

But I really love it.

I know it is so small for 60 people,

and we have to clean and rearrange the table very often,

because we're having our class at the same place, same table.

But anyways,

I really love it.

I guess because it is so small we all get real close,

Those who have never talk before,

Hangs around together,

Those that never laugh,

crack the funniest random jokes.

We tend to get closer but trying to move away,

hahaha, I mean, it can be quite annoying when you have 5 different type, language & genre of song injust 1 small room with 60 people,

sorg nak pasang korea,

sorg nak rock kapak,

sorg nak bieber,

sorg nak avenge sevenfold,

mmg payah weh.

But I wouldnt trade it with anything else,

I love just the way it is :)

Luahan perasaan

2011-12-05T21:39:00.000-08:00

I used to write everyday,

Thats my way of thinking, by writing,

but now, I really have no time no more.

Now, when I think of blogging,

my fingers starts to press the keyboard at one time,

haha, there is just too many things that is happening,

So many changes, in fact nothing is the same anymore.

Thus the summary of it is,

I have finally adapt with this place,

right after archiday,

Im getting attached with it in fact.

Im guessing that it is the effect of that smelly water that threw to us.
-__-

Archiday,

I still dont what how to describe this event,

but it is something like, an faculty event.

It is tiring, fun and an emotional battle in one shot.

But I learnt a lot,

I learn that I really love wires,

& not to depend on anyone,

If I want it, I have to do it myself.

Oh & do not sacrifice anything is you're heart tell you not to.

Hmm, what else,

Oh, I get to meet my girlfriends every month now,

JOY!

hahaha, it is amazing that tugh we have different life now,
We can still sit, talk and make silly jokes like we were still in high school,

TBOF. All that is left to do is now,

ice skating & rock climbing.

Oh finally, I realise that all my design are related to superheroes.

Hmm, maybe because Im one of them ;)

Oh, okay, I hate long post,

Till then, Loves :)

You have no idea

2011-11-09T20:33:00.000-08:00

A wise woman once say this to me.

'You're first idea is the best idea. Stick with that, but search for more'

So Im gonna write it now,
while it is still fresh.

I HAD AN AWESOME DAY!
haha,

It started with,
Along sent me to LRT Jelatek,
Im so sorry for the traffic you had to go through.
Then off I go to KL Central,
At where I found my 2 new babies

TA-DAA!!

Oh, this one, it's fully silk,

Can you imagine just how comfortable it is,

hihihi, me love!

This one, hmm, it do cost a little less than it look,

but the quality is as bad.

hahaha, I was very clumsy on the escalator,

and ends up losing some of the manik

Then, I make my way to... wait for it....IDC!

Hohohohoho, my forever favorite playground.

hahaha, ok ok, for those of you who dont know IDC,

My first jod is in IDC (International Data Coorperation).

There, I met this awesome people,

Kak Suraya, Kak Fazrin, A'in, & Solehah.

Whom made my day yesterday.

We was actually celebrating Kak Fazrin's birthday.

Ok, pe lagi karaoke laaa.

Haha, we went to redbox low yat,

It's my first time there.

It is so much cheaper than Red Box Pavilion,

But it is not bad at all.

The people are x600 time friendlier.

I sang my wajib song lah,

mcm best thing I've never had, listen, angel's cry, broken hearted girl.

But they laugh at me through at the song,

The only song I manage so finish is broken hearted girl,

tu pun dah susah payah. hahaha -________---

Nasib baik sayang.

Here's a video,

and off I go!

Arios :)

Make Up

2011-11-08T19:22:00.000-08:00

Some peole might over do it,
Some can use a little bit more of it.

But why do women put on make ups?
I've once read a quote saying

"Women are attracted to promises while, men are attracted to beauty,

that's why women put up on make up while men put up on lies''

Which I think explains a few things,

I know some of you might not like people with make up.
But at least show some sense of appreciation.
That poor lady is trying.

Archi

2011-11-08T02:28:00.000-08:00

This is how I describe love.

It's hard but fun at the same time.
It's depressing because it will never live your mind.
It doesn't really treat you right all the time,
but you want to spend your whole life with it/ him or her.

So the love of my life is archi ;)

Double A

2011-11-07T02:22:00.000-08:00

Im listening to these 2 song right now :

1. The man who can't be move - The Script

2. Best thing I never had - Beyonce

Which both brings me back to you.

At some point,
I believes that I could love you forever,

But on the second thought,
I believes that I've never really love you.
Maybe because you've hurt me too bad.
Or maybe because I was just being greedy and I just want you.
Without really love you.

Buy either way,
You're the first guy,
That I could imagine myself being with.
And so far you're the only one.

I dont know whether I want you back or not.
Big chance, no.

But if I could turn back the time,
And have the old you,
the guy that I thought you are,
I would with no doubt love you all my whole life.

But too bad,
You're not the guy I thought you are.
You left.

Asif Oh Asif

2011-11-05T06:45:00.000-07:00

Aku eksited sgt sampai aku koyak ni, hihi.

seriously, thank you so much!!
Terharu x112354168432106546.

Aku memain je bila mintak
(buat muka)
Aku tgh ckp dgn nenek aku tau masa kau dtg,
Aku tak tahu pulak kau kat luar,
bila aku letak telefon,
baru adik aku bagitahu kau ada kat luar.

So cecepat la aku tukar baju.
Tgk tgk, kereta kau dah jalan.
Pastu baru ayah aku kasi cupcakes tu.

Anyways, SEDAPP GILA CAKE TU!
Mak aku suka gilaaa!
~~Dia nak makan semuaaa.~~
LOL, so maknanya,
satu rumah aku suka kau dgn mak kau !
Hahaha.

Thanks Laling!
BFF la kita. haha.

Flow

2011-11-05T06:26:00.000-07:00

I dont know why,

nowadays, all the prediction that they have in facebook, like anita's prediction, always comments about my love life.

I mean

There a lot other important things that are happening in my life right now,
++ I dont even have a boyfriend or anything close to that!

I dont really need a guy right now.
I need to get use to being on my own in this place,
I want adjust myself and be independent.

So, right now, I don't seek love.
But when the time come, InsayAllah. :)

& when the time comes,

I'll love him all my life,

like how my mother loves my father,

how my grandmother cares for my grandfather.

Just a simple thank you

2011-11-05T05:37:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Tesco with my mother.
I am seriously annoyed with some Malaysian who just dont know how to say thank you.

Why is it so hard?
Seriously bro, you wont lose anything by saying thank you.
In fact, it makes you look pretty well educated.

For example:
1. There's this one lady who asked for more stock of rice. That poor worker when all the way just to find you another pack of rick and you take it, walk away, showing any sign of appreciation.
Aiyo lady!
I know that he's a worker but that's his job.
But do you know that it's very easy for him to say lie to you by saying that they have run out of stock,
and save him all the trouble.
A simple smile would make him fell that what he have done is worth it.

2. There's this one kid who picked up an apple that fell from this man's trolley,
and he didn't even say thank you.
Why?
because you're older?
because when you say thank you that kid wont respect you any more?
There's no such thing la deyy.
Maybe for you it is not a big thing, but you are actually injecting a virus in our culture. There are a big tendency that the kid will grew up being like you. Disable in showing appreciation.
So, at your age, you should have known better, be wise :)

A simple smile would do,
but a simple thank you wouldn't hurt too :)

Or at least, do this :)

Because God wants me to carry on

2011-11-04T05:03:00.000-07:00

I dont know what my destiny is,
but I really want this,
more than I've ever wanted anything else.

Sometimes I stumble,
Sometimes I fall,
But please Ya Allah,
Let me carry on.

Because I have to admit,
It is so much harder than I thought,
But if You, Ya Allah, believes in me,
I'll put faith in myself as well.

Because as long as I remember this has always been my dream

A GREAT GETAWAY

2011-10-28T12:49:00.000-07:00

Im back pipol (!!)

Finally.

Well, thanks to PTPTN,

Kalau tak, tadanyaa dpt balik.

Anyways,

as soon as I reach KL,

Razin, being a sweetheart,

make his way to my house to pick me up to meet up.

I called Asif & Nadia,

Since we'll be hanging out around their place.

So we did some catching up,

It was refreshing to sit with some old friends,

Talk about the past

and stop thinking about present for a while

Well this is Razin Ashraf,

Org tua minum teh panas,

Org muda Teh O ais Laici ;)

Nadia Nadhira.

Dulu kita ni bayangbayang masingmasing

Pergi memana togedergeder

Asif, my very own Laling.

-________----

Ahh, Refreshing!

Disappointments

2011-10-28T12:18:00.000-07:00

''Muni, I think, right now, I can write a very very long essay on disappointments'

I dont even know where to start.

Let's start with my first day being your leader.

Do remember I serious I was?

I was strict, serious, and far from warm.

But as days goes by,

I realise what an amazing people you guys are,

It will be a waste not to be friend with everyone.

Slowly, I becoming more of a friend than a leader,

with the hope that maybe,

I could be both, and still work together smoothly.

But during archisport,

You prove me wrong,

The commitments and respect that you showed as as thin as our unity.

But I excuse you,

because it was our first time working together,

I give you rooms for improvements.

Yesterday, after architalk.

You shocked me by showing me how bad I did as a leader.

Taking my efforts for granted,

Living in your own way,

you choose to ignore and neglect the orders.

You make me look useless in front of the seniors,

You laugh at my anger and you dont even feel the need to apologize,

Even if it's not to me, at least for those who took the blame.

I thought about stepping down,

letting go of this stress & depressions that I dont get any benefits from.

But, unfortunately, that's not how I roll.

I'll finish what I've started.

I'll go only when you dont want me anymore.

Till then, I'll keep on trying,

As for you, I hope you'll realize,

how hard is it to fight the flow,

and how fun it will be to just love and unite.

Some might be mad,

Telling me if I were a friend,

I would cover it up for you.

Try to see in from my view,

You're not being a good friend either,

for not letting me be a leader.

I am beyond disappointed,

I thought we were better than this,
I thought we were a team,
But obviously we're not,
We're going on our own way.

I'll turn back to the old me.

Because if this is how you define friendship,

I would rather be a leader than a friend.

But there's a long way to go,
This is not the end,
because no matter how ignorant you are,
how little respect you've showed.

I can still treasure and love you <3
Let's work this thing out

Ramdoness

2011-10-22T04:30:00.000-07:00

Hmm, yeah, how I wish.

Someday I need to come back,

and it will be worse

Hahaha, dont wait hun,

Fun are dangerous.

Be careful :)

It helps when Im depress,

when Im angry,

Giggling is always the best medicine

How I wish

I have to admit,

there are times when I miss playing with my hair.

Wondering whether I want to tie it up or let fall.

Let it fall on my face while talking.

The temptation to wear those cloths,

hairbands and ribbons.

Are, hmm, you can't imagine,

Hmm, but I would never take off my hijab.

I know, it's worth it,

InsyaAllah.

OH, my fav.

We had a lot of road trips already.

On the first week, we went to Ipoh,

Then, Lata kinjang.

It was awesome.

Refreshing.

Bumpy Ride

2011-10-03T11:45:00.000-07:00

PRESENTING! THE PRETTIEST KNEE!!

*Drum rolls*

Credit to = Futsal :)

Dont

2011-10-03T11:11:00.000-07:00

Don't Fall

I'm already here

2011-09-08T07:29:00.001-07:00

after 9 years of dreaming.

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BIRTHDAY BOYYY!

2011-08-12T11:27:00.000-07:00

13/8/2011

Alrightt, this post is dedicated to my beloved best friend, my very own laling, who's turning 18 today!

ASIF HAIQAL ZUHARMAN! :)

And so, Im bless enough to get to know this guy,
I know him since primary school,
My first impression was,
'Wow, this guy has a veghi nice name'

He was our class monitor in 6 Utarid,
My table was place opposite his,
We didnt talk much but,
Whenever we talk, we talk about ruffedge, haha,
So, back then, I didn't get the chance to know him better,

I impression was,

Sombong la budak ni
Garang gila la ketua ni
Mesti anak manja ni.

hahahahha, sorry, ni dulu.

But then, Allhamdulillah,
I get to be in the same class with him in 4 Gaharu & 5 Gaharu,
He is definitely one of the best guy I've met,
& he's good in LK too, haha.
Mmg tak sombong langsung, tapi pemalu sikit laa.
He can be a great adviser at times,
I really enjoys & miss the times when we would sit in a group and talks about random, fun subject whenever teacher are in the class.

Ohh, thanks to him,
I realise how fat my fingers are.
Hahaha, he tried to teach me how to play guitar,
but my fingers are just too fat for that,
So, he told me to go for seruling,
darn you!

He's mother makes the best cookies in the world,
So, another activity that I enjoy doing with him is eat,
Haha, mann, he surely can critic a food very well,

'Mee ni rebus lama sgt'

'mcm tak letak garam je'

'pedas nak mampus'

Haha, but he can appreciates it very well too :)

So, he's that rare guy that you can talk with,
a good listener & a good adviser :)
Although, he may look like a playboy,
But he's not,
:) so worry not sistah.

Hooyeah, asif, we make a very good team

By the way,

ladies out there,

He's single

But if you mess with him,

you're messing with me B-)

Hahaha, ok ok,

So, asiff,

Happy Birthday,

I hope you'll get all the good things in life,

Nanti kita lepak,

Kau bawak red velvet mak kau au,

hahaha,

Okayy, peace out!

Kami

2011-08-09T10:05:00.000-07:00

And so, me & Naseem watched Kami The Movie just now,
a long lost favourite movie,
Ohh, it was nice.
Well written story.

But im having a emotional battle right now,
because the story made me realise,
just how much I misses my girls, my friends.

I know they all have new commitment now,
We're all have different path.
And maybe they're just too busy to be affected by our memories,
But, I really do miss them.

Anyways,
the main reason Im posting is because,
Naseem kinda made some relations between the characters in Kami,
with the characters we have in TBOF.

He said
Sofie= Ayiesha, like duuhh, there's no need of explanation on that.
Ali = Fatihin, well according to Naseem, Fthn is the most matured one, and the one who is handling everyone's problem.
Adi =, the most boyish one, and the one who loves to go for online dating, (well,this is according to me, and this is who she was years ago)
Lin = Me, nadira. Well this is just bcs of the lips. Kuajo btl bdk tu
Abu =Lydia, for her ability to make jokes in any situation.

Hmm, apparently, Im missing you guys too badly. Be back faster.

It's a sad night

2011-08-08T10:22:00.000-07:00

Hi, I know I haven't blog for some time.
But I've lost track, and I dont know wear to start.
There's too many things that have happened.
I got back from plkn,
Nardine is gone to indonesia to pursue her passion for medic,
and I couldnt contact my fiends anymore,
hahhaha, kk, well, see there's tons of things that I would love to write.
I'll try when I have the mood.

You know, when I was in PLKN,
I realize, how naive I was and still am.
I remember being so sure about so many things,
but I am not anymore,
because when I seems to understand something,
I am wrong.

So, I dont know how to write anymore,
because I dont have any fix point of view.

Deary Kah Ee

2011-08-08T09:28:00.000-07:00

Hihihi, I know you have a lot more pretty pictures, but im taking this one, because, I really miss this photographer of mine, xx

It's your birthday and I would love to celebrate it with you like we did for the past 11 years,
But we both know that same things have changed but, luckily our friendship remains the same.
I really mean it when I say, you're are the sweetest girl.
I am blessed to grow up with you.

Oh, honestly, I think one of the best part of editorial board last year for me is having to spend more time with you :)
I love you, and I hope that our friendship will last till the end of time.
I love the times when we act all crazy and had our secret jokes at the corner of that makmal,
Or how well you organised our photoshoot day,
Or when we secretly go to the canteen while others are working their ass off in the makmal.
How, you, me & eric would dance and sing our heart out in front of cendana and ran when Ms. Parimala sees us.
Haha, good old times.

I still dont know how you manage to have such a make over on yourself,
(hahaha, you're still my idol)
But you're a beautiful grown up girl now,
take a good care of yourself alrighttt?
& you deserve the best guy.
So dont let those crappy ones hurt you.

Happy birthday,
Go out and have a blast,
I hope you get all the good things in life,
I love you deary kah ee
:)

What I've learnt

2011-06-18T18:36:00.000-07:00

What I've learnt from PLKN,
Life is a journey,
No matter how you hate it,
Or how bad you wants it,
God decides your path.

And I believe,
that if you learn to appreciates it,
life takes you to wonderful places.

Like PLKN itself,
no matter how much I hate it,
or how I enjoys it,
Soon it will be memories,
and I will never go back there.

So all I can do is take everything that I could from there,
So that I could be the best person I could be at my next destination.
Which is Alhamdlillah, my choice.

Last report

2011-05-15T15:53:00.000-07:00

It's 6.52 am,
I meed to get going already,
PLKN awaits,

Right now,
Im feeling excited, and quite sad,
I've never leave my home,
never been away from my mother,

But I know this is the beginning of my journey,
Im gonna stand on my own feet now.

Hihi, Okay, since im going already,
I would like to ask for forgiveness from everyone.
I truly, am sorry if I've done you wrong.
Forgive me and I've forgive everyone who has done me wrong,
Even things that I dont know.

Be Well, till then :)

I am not racist

2011-05-11T23:51:00.000-07:00

I got an email,
I thought it is just such a good joke,
I want to post it in my blog,
this is strictly for fun,
I dont mean to offend anyone.

A Pakistani Boy Got Admission In An American School.

Teacher: What's Your Name ?
Boy: Ahmad
Teacher: No, now you are in America. Your name is Johnny from today.
(Boy
Went Home.)
Mom Asked: How was the day, Ahmad?
Boy : I'm an American... now call me, "Johnny".

Mom & Dad both got offended and beat the boy up. Next day he went back
to
school with all bruised.

Teacher: What happened to you, Johnny?
Boy: Ma'am, just 4 hours after I became American... I was attacked by
two
Pakistanis!

It's a very stupid one, right?

Future

2011-05-09T12:35:00.000-07:00

Again, we are at the T-junction.
We cant make any U-turn,
and in this path,
there is no more going forward.

We need to choose pour own path now.
Which is scary.
Our path,
might not be the same anymore.

Hmm, anyways,
I got myself the course that I want,
Alhamdulillah.
At UiTM seri Iskandar Perak.
Off I go.

This scares me,
I've never thought what I dream about is one step closer,
I can't believe im really gonna be a architect,
if I graduate of course.

I remember calling my physics tuition teacher,
Mr.Chandra,
to inform hima bout my SPM result,
and I wish to continue in architecture,
he's an engineer you see,
I remember he said,
'aahh, Im starting a new project, too bad you're 6 years late'
haha,
Wait for me, I'll catch up.

Somewhere in Between

2011-05-09T11:25:00.000-07:00

There's a lot this is happening in my life lately,
but I need the mood to blog about it,
and now is not the time.

What I want, need to write about right now is, BB.

I dot know what are we.
But I really dont want to go through this emotional battle twice,
so stop being so nice to me,
I might get it all mixed up again.

I love you but I love us more,
I know that sounds selfish,
if we could stay like this,
then I think we could be forever,
without having to be together,
but we still have each other.

So lets just stop,
right now.

Our friendship is not a game

Im Bored

2011-05-04T05:59:00.001-07:00

Perbincangan komsas kita hari ini kanak-kanak,

Tema :
Persahabatan di antara lelaki dan perempuan.

Persoalan :
1.Persahabatan yang berlainan jantina akan mengudang perasaan cinta
2.Laluan liku apabila menyimpan perasaan terhadap rakan baik.

Nilai-nilai murni:
Hargai dan hormati perasan rakan.

Pengunaan Peribahasa:
1.Jangan bermain dengan api
2.Kalau tidak mahu dilambung ombak, jangan berumah di tepi pantai
3.Sediakan payung sebelum hujan.

Pengajaran:
Hmm, yang ini aku tak tahu nak tulis apa.

Office life

2011-04-25T04:11:00.000-07:00

Hello loves :)

I know I didn't update my blog for a very very very long time,
I've been so busy, sorry.
Not that you missed me, I know. Lolz.

Okay, nowadays, my life only happens in the IDC,
yes, from 9 to 5,
then I went back home and i am too tired to do anything,
to even help my mother with the house chores.
So I dont even have time to online or any social life.
I know, Im sorry loved ones,
I didn't mean to ditch anyone.

Worst, I can't even enjoy my weekend,
I have so many to do,
I mean last few weeks I had to follow my sister, awine, to go shopping for her new school.
Oh, yes, Awine was accepted to MOZAC.

But, nywys, yeah, I miss my old life,
I miss my friends, and weird, I miss my family.

Don't waste your time, xx

2011-04-21T00:55:00.000-07:00

I am currently working, haha, so yes this is a haram post.

Well, my boss strictly said, no facebook during office hour,
but she said nothing about blog. Hmm, haha, ok ok, screw that, she has my blog url.

Anyways, I have nothing to do now,
so I decide to blog,
what should I blog about?
Guys.

Okay, at my work place,
I had a huge crush on this one guy,
I can't remember what his name, but yeah, I liked him.
haha, he is just such a sweetheart,
gentlemen gilaaa, and he has the look as well.
Tapi dia dah stop, so, bye bye good-boy.
But I met him at red box yesterday,
still sizzling hot, hehe, he still remembers me :)

And, we had a few more new guys here,
I have to admit,
I thought I like one of them,
but, after a while,
I realize, I was just feeling lonely,
so I had it all mixed up,
so right now, I am all for myself,
I dont have any crush on anyone.

Oh yes, you've just wasted 3 minutes of your time to read this blog,
bye loves

Alhamdulillah

2011-03-28T05:47:00.001-07:00

Yeay! At last, these are mine!
I wanted to buy these since last month,
But, I've spent all of my money on the phone, hehehe

Hihihi, as soon as I receive the money from abah sir and pok li,
These shoes come into my mind,
'I have to buy the shoes tomorrow'

So as soon as I finish work today,
I force ira to follow me to isetan,
I feel bad though, bcs she was in hurry,
Hihi, I lurvee you.
I couldn't take solehah with me,
Since she was going to a date with uncle Daniel, her neighbour,
Lolz, she's funny.

It took me a while though,
To really buy these since I'm not use to buying expensive stuff,
But, if there's a will, there's a way.
Lolzz

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SBS Jogathon

2011-03-26T08:58:00.001-07:00

26/3/2011, saturday.

Our school, SBS had a jogathon day,
It is something like hari kantin+merentas desa,
There were so many activities,
Like paintball, SBS got talent, rumah hantu, edu fair, football match and so many other activities that I don't know.

So, after 3 months,
we finally went back there,
it's was nice
and hot, smelly and sweaty, lolz.
I finally get to meet my teachers and thanks them,
Since they were so busy on the result day.

Overall it was a nice day,
met exschoolmate,
It feels weird though,
Wacthing everyone else wearing uniform and I don't,
And surprisingly, that place doesn't feel like home anymore.
Still, I had fun :)

Motor kawasaki favourite pengetuaa, haha.

Bila tuan motor pandang, haha.
Farid mana kesah kan farid? ada awek pegang motor, lololol

Bangga gilaaa, selepas hampir sejam dibwh matahari terik, hasilnya agak cantik, lol

That's my youngest brother, Naseem, Acim, Cimpo

hihi, that's ni legs, I didn't realise it was in the picture until the picture is taken.

We didn't join anything,
Except for the boys, they joined the football match with some club.
As for the girls, We used up the time to catch up with each other
and simply, drown in our own thoughts.

Then, me, Nadia, imran, asif, and azman went to visit syamir at HUKM,
He got admitted last wednesday,
few hours bfr result SPM,
due to dehydration that effected his kidney,
anywys, he was fine already.

Syamir malu malu kucing tamo ambik gambar, hap-puihh, hahaha

Bongok gila dorg ni, lawat org sakit tapi borak sesama sendiri, kesian syamir, lol

After lunch, Imran sent us all home.

What I realise today is,
Nadia and Imran is the cutest couple I've known,
I like they way they fight,
the way they tumbuktumbuk each other,
calling each other bodoh, banggang.
But in a very cute way :)

I so happy for both of them,
especially you Nadia,
You're a lucky girl :)
xx

Weh bila kau nk cari boyfriend?

2011-03-26T08:22:00.000-07:00

I don't know whether it's me, or them,
All that I'm sure of,
It's not the right time.

Of course, there are times when I have thoughts like,
"Ohh, I wish I could message someone right now, I'm bored"
"Haih, kalau ada boyfriend kan best"
"Homai, comelnya couple tu, hihi, jelesnyaaaaaaaaaa"

But I'm adapting with this new life.
I don't want to start it with something I'm not sure of.
I couldn't start take that risk.
So I need a strong start by myself.

Furthermore,
I know if I have a boyfriend right now,
He will be my everything,
Since I'm so lonely right now,
It scared me that I might depend on someone so much,

So, not now.
I am both not ready and refuse.

Tp, mmg tada org nk pun, lololol.

Result SPM

2011-03-23T08:57:00.000-07:00

I am mentally so tired,
but I have to write,
while it's still fresh.

Honestly, I was not scared at all yesterday,
I was excited last week.
I mean,
I just wanted it be over,
after 3 months of waiting.

But what I had in mind was 3a's

but when I woke up this morning,
I couldn't get up from bed,
After subuh, I went straight to bed and I was numb,
I hide under my blanket and close my eyes shut.

I couldn't sleep but I was to scared to open my eyes,
I know dramatic much,
but then my abah came and pull me out of bed,
he said that he is so excited and he wants to be there early.
haih, nasib aku sayang.

I wore the outfit that I wore 3 days ago,
the ones that I forgot to put into washing machine,
so, yeah, I wore a very lousy outfits.

Once I reach school, it was nice, to finally meet everyone again,
But it was so scary as well.

then they announced the students that gets straight A's,
I waited, but it was a no for me,
I was, not-yet-dissapointed.
All that I could think about was,
'WHAT IS MY RESULT THEN?'

Last2 dpt 7A 2B,
Alhamdulillah, but at first I cried so hard,
I dont understand why either,
I think I was just so shocked+grateful+frustrated.

Then we (nadia, ayiesha, eldyia, fatihin) went to redbox,
to shout it all off.

While 5 of us was singing,
Muna, Phillip, Eric Sayang, and a lot more came in.
We sang what's my name-rihanna,
and then they left.

After that, we sing, shout, dance it all off,
all the frustration, disappointment, and fear.

I was keeping it all inside,
the fact that I missed cumi so bad,
I kept on looking at my phone,
reminding myself not to call her,
but I broke down in redbox.
I swear I almost heard she should
"congrats dikra! nanti cumi kasi hadiah"

Anyways,
Alhamdulillah.
Everything went well.
:)

About my result,
that would be in another post,
as for now,
i am just so tired.

How did we get here?

2011-03-19T00:53:00.001-07:00

I swear if we do what we did yesterday when we were 13,
We would be cursing at ourselves,
Shouting here and there,
'Ewwww', is the perfect word.

But aren't we the happiest friends yesterday?
I mean, now they're us,
And we're them.

So lesson learnt,
Do not judge people without knowing them.

Loves xx

Jangan

2011-03-17T11:17:00.000-07:00

Just, jangan.
Okay?
:)

Jangan bagi aku false hope,
Jangan tipu,
Jangan main-main,
Jangan tipu.

Please,
Im not in one piece yet.
Thank you :)

Hello, nak gaduh tak?

2011-03-17T09:16:00.000-07:00

Hello, you wanna fight?
Lu tau ak wa gangster?

Ehe ehe ehe,
After school,
Im surprise by just how much I've change,
I can't say better, but I believe wiser.

I tend to thing in a different way,
I am now someone who bends with life,
I, I know don't who I am,
not in a bad way,
just I can't decide who I want to be anymore, life does.

Nyways, once in a while,
I'm back to myself,
The I-couldn't-care-less-about-what-you-think girl,

Do you know, I, among all the things, hate rules the most?
Im the girl who skip class to look at twin tower and sky form the corridor,
Im the girl who think that I can fly and jump at the staircase at school,
Im the girl sing with eric, my sayang, along the corridor,dancing and jumping around freely,
Im the girl who, hmm, I can go on and on about just how carefree I was.

Hmm, beautiful days.
But now,
I'm no longer that girl,
I'm scared of risk,
Rule is my bestfriend,
and I dont protest or fight anymore,
Hmm, maybe Im getting older or maybe Im just still broken

A prove of just how crazy I was

Yang ni paling byk memory. Hahaha,

Just in case you got me wrong,
Im not complaining

Ice Skating!!

2011-03-17T07:56:00.000-07:00

Mastermind, farid, the man in black.
Dia yg nak sgt ice skating ni, gay shiarlzz, lol.
Farid, serious doh, kau kena belajar senyum.

Johan dgn alif merajuk tak dpt ddk depan, alololo.

I was being careful,
so I snap this just in case we forgot where we park the car.
Well, I dont want to lost the car and walk myself home.
Tapi dorg semua tak kasi,
Konon abg macho ingat parking kereta kat manaa -___--

37 vs 48. haha, kaki rezza bapak jin : O

Paling sayang dlm dunia, Elydia Edith Zaki.
Lama gila dah tak jumpa akak cantik ni,
hihi, last time jumpa masa kita pergi zoo dulu,
haih, she's like my perfect get away.

Kaki sorg sorg, pehh.

alolololo

Hihihi, tak tahu dorg ni minum susu apa masa kecik sampai jadi tgi cam ni.
PS/ I know we look so rempit-ish in this picture,
Senarnyaa, kami lah rempit sejatieeeiiiee.
Hahaha, lampu aa bro, buat leher rezza nmpk panjang, rambut farid nmpk pelik, azman punya hidung nmpk panjang,
hahahaha, alololo, sayang korg :)

Walking to the past

2011-03-16T07:27:00.000-07:00

Hari ni habis kerja pukul 6,
But mama was working extra hours,
so I decided to wait for her.

Have you ever let you legs lead the way?
after sending my friends to the bus station,
I had no direction at all,
but I know I wanted to walk,
So I walked, walked, walked.

For all I know,
I was right in front of KLCC park mosque,
I was amazed by it's beauty, cantik nak matii,
lagi bila maghrib, awan warna romantik.
Rasa mcm heaven on earth.
Pastu tgk jam menara maxis,
7.26, hmm, excited gila nak try sembahyg kat masjid, heaven on earth ni.

Lama gila dah tak sembahyang jemaah,
teringat bula puasa, terawih.
Haih, normal lah org skrg,
nak tunggu ramadan baru nak pergi surau.
haish, rasa bersalahhh.

Nywys, I actually wanted to blog about teenagers,
atau lebih mudah 'budak-budak baru nak up'

It's Wednesday,
and it's school holiday,
It has been a very old-kl-tradition for teenagers to 'turun kl' on days like today.
So, during my lunch time or after my working hours,
bersepah gangs, group, clicks, whatever you call yourself around kl,
and the fact that my office is beside pavilion is not helping//

I can't really remember what I was thinking when I was at their age,
So I can't really understand why are they behaving that way.

After maghrib, I spend my time wondering around KLCC park,
Bila matahari turun,
dalam taman indah,
banyak lah kumbang cari bunga.
hahaha, okay, not fani,

I mean,
do you really have to show all of that, or those?
do you really, really, really, need to do that in public?
do you think you're whole life people will be saying,
'weh cool gila doh kau smoke!'
'Gila aa weh, nmpk mcm kau tak pakai seluar doh, hot gilaa!'
' 'pant*t, p*kimak, m*ther f, sh*t' cool en aku mencarut in public?'
hahaha

My point is, kids,
Right now you're at the age where you're adapting with the culture around you,
trying to be known (popular aa senang citaa)
trying to be different,
trying to search for who you really are.

I can understand the fact that at your age you can be super lame, hahaha,
but please dont be stupid :)

Please learn the thin line between being hot and cheap,
Trust me, you have a long way to go,
Plus, you can't, like, use up all of your weapon in just one battle?
;P

square 3

2011-03-15T06:43:00.001-07:00

This time, I'm writing about me and myself.

I got my driving licence already,
Alhamdulillah.

I'm still by myself,
Single, in another word.

I won't lie,
There are times when I feel alone, lonely.
Envy my happy friends.
Don't get me wrong,
I'm happy for them, as happy as a friend can be,

I end up mixing up mu feelins,
I force myself to believe that I'm in love with some guy I just get know.
But along the way I realise,

I prefer to be by myself.
Im just so scared to fall in love again,
So for now, I'm not ready to be in a relationship
For now, please try again next week,
hahaha

Square 2

2011-03-15T01:13:00.000-07:00

Now, I would like to write about my work,

I got a job at IDC last january,

It is a good, nice job.

I love it because of the people,

they are all very friendly people,

We have about 7 malaysian,

10 philipines,

and 5 indonesian.

I really love them all,

My work itself is very stressful,

it can be very boring at times,

but I just can stop because I love going to KL everday,

I love to variety choices of place that I can choose to go for lunch,

I love the working culture.

And most important reason,

working has made my relationship with my mother grew closer.

Some picture of mah working place yo

Square 1

2011-03-14T09:55:00.001-07:00

Im gonna start with Cumi,

My cumi, Romieza Osman died on 29th january 2011,

11.25 a.m. at subang medical center.

Al-fatihah

I just love the way she can smile all the way till the end,

I can't never forget our final goodbye,

I am very lucky and grateful that we had that goodbye,

I had to chance to asked for her forgiveness and tell her that I love her,

and I will never forget the way she said,

'Dikra, kalau lepas ni, kita tak jumpa lagi dah, tapaa, nanti kita jumpa balik :)'

Everything went very smooth,

We send her back to kelantan,

to place her there, just as she wanted.

Im so happy that I get to know her,

With no doubt,

she makes me a better person.

Im so proud be to her niece.

Im back

2011-03-14T09:37:00.000-07:00

I did some thinking late, should I delete this blog, since I dnt really have time for blogging anymore,

But, hmm, I decide to just keep it,

with or without readers :)

My guess

2011-01-10T22:07:00.000-08:00

I guess what I was trying to say in my previous post is,

For a girl,

she starts to imagine stuff,

think about stuff that is not real,

But end up being sad, happy, hopeful or mad about those stuf.

For an example,

when she start to know a guy,

She start to judge to every little things the boy does,

and jump into conclusion what type of guy the boy is.

The problem is,

You need longer than a week, a month or a year, to know someone.

And for me,

everybody is different.

There is not 'type'

Im just saying

2011-01-10T08:41:00.000-08:00

First thing first, let me make it clear,

I am not being emotional,

I am being thoughtful and sensitive.

You know how the silent midnight air can shout the truth to you?

Well, it's 12.45 in the morning my dear readers.

I love to write, I really love to write.

And it doesn't bother if nobody is reading.

because writing my my way to understand and to gather my thoughts, opinions and feelings.

I am a girl.

Like any other girls, I tend to over think, over react, and over emotional.

But thanks to that,

we are able to fall in love with the stupidest boy alive.

I dont know what about the other girls,

but once Im in love or even have a crush on someone,

I tend to live in my imagination and fantasy world.

The world where the boy is perfect,

where you're able to make so many excuses for the boy's mistakes,

believing that he is what you think he is,

instead of what what he actually is.

Believing that he'll treat you right,

love you right.

Even if he has a heart like a devil,

It that world, I'll believe that he never meant to hurt me.

I'll give him a lot of new chances,

bcs in my imagination, we are happy together.

If and only if we are able to live in that world forever than pain wont found us,

because what really hurt is when we start to see the doors to reality,

When we realise, the boy chose to hurt us,

played with our feelings because it wont hurt him if we are hur

ting.

The excuses we've made for him is a waste of time,

The chances was a vain.

And what I hate the most is to realize,

that the boy is not the boy I thought he is.

It for me is among the most painful truth.

Once we chose to stop believing our imagination and fantasy,

We start to realize what a fool we were.

and just how we should protect ourselves more instead of protecting the relationship this is not real.

We force ourselves to move on, try to defeat time.

we should have take it easy, one step at the time, work with time.

And to move on is not about forgetting everything,

it's about having the past that doesn't effect us anymore.

but again we over think, over react and being over emotional.

And for me,

You'll get the best view of situation, when you are not in the situation.

Listen to what others have to say, and stop making excuse for the boy.

But most importantly, listen to you heart,

because it will tell you when will enough be enough.

Im just saying,

Every girl hope for a boy to fall in love with,

to laugh with, to trust too.

To feel safe with, to have a deep conversation with.

To have nice happy ending with.

But most of the time,

it only happens in our head.

but we'll survive.

Believe in Allah,

Belive that He knows what's the best for us :)

A women's heart is like a deep ocean

Ice Skating

2011-01-10T05:00:00.000-08:00

I have a lot to tell about my life,

Being free from any responsibilities allows me to create a lot of problems,

But of course I end up hurting myself,

I sprained my ankle,

After I felt so hard during Ice skating.

Hoho, I've been doing a lot of things for the last few weeks,

Went to Sunway Lagoon with my family,

Rock Climbing with my friends,

Ide Skating with my cousins.

I've plotted a lot of interesting blog in my head,

But, tahu lah nadira,

Bila tak tulis, terus lupaaa.

One day

2011-01-09T20:40:00.000-08:00

Once Im rich,

When I can afford to buy anything I want and everthing everyone wants,

Have my own bank,

Able to fly everyday, everywhere because I have private planes for everyone I know.

Get lost in my own home,

Sweating by just walking form my room to the front door, because my house is too big.

Burn my cars because I dont know where to put them since I have thousand of them already

Have my chicken cooked with gold dressing,

Buy a house for my chocolates and favourite cookies ,

I'll buy this dress for Fatihin:)

I love these kind of picture

2011-01-09T20:23:00.000-08:00

Im loving the second page, so truee

Haha, no 1, 6,9, 13.

I disagree

2011-01-09T19:50:00.000-08:00

I think everyone has felt this at least once in their life,

When anger take over their mind, behavior and themselves,

I totally disagree with the saying

'Sometimes, anger helps you to live you life, move on'

From my eyes,

from my story,

anger will just make it harder to live.

It'll make hard to even breath, think especially love.

And to neutralize the anger,

you need to forgive.

I know it is not easy,

but Im not telling you to forget,

just forgive.

It is way easier than having a heart that is full with anger.

Then, you'll see the beauty of life,

the joy of living.

and you'll understand more about loving someone :)

Some may forget that anger is so also pain

So, I say no to anger :)

My thing yaww

2011-01-04T10:52:00.000-08:00

Since football session has finally over,

For Harimau Malaya I mean,
Arsenal, Chelsea, Liverpool, Man. Utd, tu lain lah ye kak,

Anyways, it's about badminton nowadays,
about our popular coach Misbun sent his resign letter,
and Lee Chong Wei is about to follow his step,
Hmm, I dont really get the story,
But I think it's a waste,
I mean both of them has contribute a lot to our country,
but they have the right to choose their path in life.

Anyways, eventhough I am a very busy women right now,
Penternak lemak yg berjaya,
I get myself a new thing,
I stalk.
hohoho, I feel like I've just tell the world that I am a dreadful killer.

Anyhow, I love to linger in blogs and tumblr,
I love bloggers,
Especially local Malaysian blogger,
that gives a lot of tutorial about how tho wear hijab or selendang,
because like them,
I love to change the wear I wear hijab,
Based on my mood

So I recently found these blogs,
Maria - She is very funny, and I love her styles, just she is able to turn a simple outfit to a coolio one
Fatin Liyana - She is one of the top ten most popular blogger in Malaysia, and she's pretty
Proudduck - If you're not wearing hijab, I think you should really try this.
Tolongjangan - Just one of my fav. tumblr right after nadia's

So go read their blogs, Dont waste your time on mine -________-

Birthday Bash!!!

2011-01-01T09:36:00.000-08:00

It's my babygirl's birthday!

She loves purple, butterflies, and 22.

She loves cooking and, er, kak nani.

But everyone loves her!

Im so sorry, Im not in my lovy-dovy mood,

but you know how important you are already dont you?

You may not realize this but,

You're like the first person everybody turns too,

And the first shoulder I cried on was yours,

Im going live another 70 years of my life remembering that.

Im blessed to have you as my friend,

I've not been a very good friend to you,

Im sorry but,

I wont trade you for anything else in this world

I want to be your friend even when we hit 60,

I still want to turn to you even if I have a husband,

I want to teach my children that they should find a friend like you.

xx Nur Fatihin binti Rashid :)

this reminds me of you,

just how you think all of you friends are annoying,

haha, xx

Back then.

2011-01-01T03:54:00.000-08:00

Okay, you can skip this post because it's gonna be an emo one.

When, I was about 14,

I pity those people who paid for others the listen to their problems.

I remember thinking,

those who goes to those for er, therapy session,

with hmm, okay I dont know how to explain.

Have you seen freaky friday?

The mother, who get pay to hear peoples problem,

let's call her job as guheri,

Since I dont know what is the real name.

Okay, I remember thinking,

People who goes to guheri must have no friends,

must have a very pitiful life,

nobody to turn to,

nobody to trust.

Because they are telling and paying strangers to listen to their pain.

But now, Im really need a guheri,

I am more than happy to pay anyone with all the money I got,

To just listen to my problems,

Without judging me,

Without taking sides,

Without arguing with me,

and blame me for my mistakes.

I've never feel so lost before.

I am emotionally so tired

to find a way to restart myself,

And the old trick doesnt work anymore

If I have a boyfriend

2010-12-30T05:44:00.000-08:00

I hope he dont care much about how good he looks because if he does,

then he must really care about how I look as well.

I think I have a tendency to grow fatter, hehe.

So I want him to love me when Im old, ugly and fat bcs I really want to do the same for him.

I hope he is not filthy rich, super hot, an actor, or a football player

because I wish to have an everyday person as my boyfriend.

A normal, random person that makes me feel

safe to fall in love with,

comfortable to date with,

and allows me to be myself in room of crowd.

I hope he wont be telling the world about our relationship,

because I really like it if we could have our own thing,

making our own secret jokes at the side of the table,

It is not that I dont want the world to know that Im not single,

just, I dislike people judging us as a couple.

I hope if there is a guy, if, that wants to marry me,

I hope he will ask my parents before he make a proposal,

I just find it to be very sweet,

to be very to consider my parents approval,

and understand how important they are to me.

But I realize that searching for a simple guy is the complicated thing in the world.

Im A Proud Malaysian

2010-12-29T07:07:00.000-08:00

Dengar Cite Malaysia Menang?

Apa lagi, kasi lah cuti,

penat kita lepak kedai mamak,

jerit-jerit terlolong.

cat muka sini sana,

Cari jersi murah kat uptown

;)

Hmm, me and my family was actually from Sunway Lagoon,

but we rush back home to watch the match,

Absolutely worth it, woo-hoo ;)

We won of course,

Having a coach like Rajagopal,

Captain like Safiq Rahim,

Goalkeeper like Khairul Fahmi,

Defenders like Muslim Ahmad, Fadhli Mohd.

Okay, okay I should stop bragging about how well I know (google)our team :)

Hihi, coming back to earth,

I think we Malaysian should say Alhamdulillah ( in any way that you prefer),

because clearly, we are blessed.

Our boys played well,

I personally think Khairul Fahmi or NorShahrul Idlan Talaha deserve the MVP (most valued player),

because somehow Khairul Fahmi was able to catch almost every single ball and a penalty!

He is with no doubt the best goalkeeper in the affsuzukicup.

Well, I personally dislike a goalkeeper from *#($*@)$*

(It is necessary to censored to avoid any hatred)

because for me he loves to complain!

I mean,

kau ingat kau tgh main wakil bola sepak Sekolah Perempuan Bahagia ( rekaan) ??

A smooth, easy way throughout the match?

While NorShahrul,

He is a special player like Rajagopal said.

I remember this line very well because I've heard it so many times in so many match,

'A unselfish played by Norshahrul'

He's like our own Lionel Messi, who opens the chance for goals.

Our tiger is roaring again,

It is awake now,

And it can use some support,

So take out those Man. Utd pillows in your car,

and put in our own HarimauMalaya pillows instead.

Ignore the ugly words from other country,

Arguing with them will just take us to their level.

We Malaysian are definitely peace-lover ;)

Like I said, fight love with hate.

And who cares if NorShahrul is married,

Khairul Fahmi has a girlfriend, Elia.

or Rajagopal is not single,

They need you to support them as a player,

not as a guy.

Aww, did I just broke your heart ; )

MAJULAH SUKAN UNTUK NEGARA YAWW!

roger-and-out

Facebook Status

2010-12-28T13:07:00.000-08:00

Haha, this is very nice actually,

to see 'top' thoughts of mine.

My favourite is actually, no. 8

Bola Sepak

2010-12-28T09:56:00.000-08:00

Lepas baca balik blog ini,

saya sedar akan bahasa org putih yg sering saya gunakan.

Jadi mengambil kesempatan ini,

Saya ingin cuba utk blog dalam bahasa sendiri.

Ada rasa sedikit kekok kerana tak biasa,

Tapi tak cuba maka tak tahu (suka hati aku je)

Sejak dua menjak ni,

aku dah makin gilakan bola.

Kalau selalu, dapat remote je mesti aku tukar 711.

Tapi skrg mesti nak pergi 813 dulu.

Secara jujurnya, aku semakin minat kat pasukan Harimau Malaya kita.

Suka tgk kepelbagaian kaum dalam satu pasukan,

tapi yg penting dari jurulatih sampai pemain,

semuanya buatan Malaysia.

Banyak sebab aku sokong Harimau Malaya,

-Sbb utama mestilah sbb aku ni org Malaysia.

-Org tak blh kata aku suka bola sbb lelaki atau nak nmpk cool, yelah, cool manalah sgt minat harimau malaya ni kalau nak dibandingkan dgn chelsea, man.utd atau arsenal.

-Pemain kita ni sebenarnya bagus bagus. Cuba bygkan dorg tgh main utk Barclays atau worldcup, mesti korg dah tabik. Terutamanya Norshahrul Idlan Talah, dia ni dah mcm Messi Melayu ;D

-Dah nama perempuan, mestilah aku suka pemain kita sbb dorg ni kacak dan bertubuh kental. Cuma agak tua utk aku :)

Malangnya, setiap perkara pasti ada pelbagai pandangan yang berbeza.

Penyokong Indonesia yang tidak dapat terima kekalahan mereka tlh byk menaburkan fitnah kepada pihak Malaysia.

Ada yang kata Malaysia gunakan dukun. Walhal, berdasarkan kepada filem-filem Melayu, kebanyakkan bomoh di Malaysia dtgnya dari Indonesia.

Ada yang kata malaysia tlg menaburkan serbuk yng menyebabkan Markus, penjaga gol Indonesia gatal-gatal. Hmm, yang ni paling karut.

Ada pula yang kata penyokong Malaysia sendiri tidak percaya dgn kemenangan Malaysia. Mana ada, saya percaya. Sebelum perlawanan lagi saya rasa Malaysia akan menang.

Namun, Rajagobal menyakinkan kita bahawa pasukan megara tidak akan 'walk-out' atau meninggalkan permainan seperti yg diancam oleh pemain indonesia.

sumber dari kompas.com

Tapi Alhamdulillah, sekarang ni, Malaysia sudah mendahului dengan 3-0.

InsayAllah, kita menang.

Tapi jgn cepat tabik dada,

Malang tak berbau, kita doa lah beramai-ramai.

Childhood memories

2010-12-27T21:44:00.000-08:00

When my friend talks about the childhood memories,

Their favourite cartoon,

I felt so left out,

because I dont know any of them,

So it makes me wonder,

What did I do when I was young?

I remember their faces,

but I've never watch any of their movies.

I've read their stories though.

Anyways, I know they are not my thing.

I didn't go crazy for them when I was young

I dont know any of these guys either

What a weird group.

But

This is who I grew up with,

SAILOR MOON!!

Oh, I miss them :( :)

POKEMON!

Oh yes, definitely.

I remember every one of them.

Even collected a set of eraser with their picture,

their cards.

Hoho, this was so my thing.

Digimon!!

Dulu mesti nak kena tgk,

setiap hari dekat NTV 7

Although most of my favourite cartoon is a japanese anime

I do love some other cartoon like Dextor's Laboratory

Hmm, no wonder I felt so left out,

Korg semua tgk cerita Orang Putih,

Cek sorg je tgk cerita Nipon

Silly us

2010-12-27T20:55:00.000-08:00

I miss those times,

Times when we were just so stupid and do silly stuffs,

Maybe it's because we were young,

or maybe because we were totally problem free.

But I miss those times nevertheless,

Now, everybody seems to be so far away,

Doing their on stuffs,

Having their own thing.

Hmm, I miss my girls.

Fight Hate with Love

2010-12-27T20:34:00.000-08:00

Trust me you'll win ;)

You're a lucky Girl

2010-12-27T20:30:00.000-08:00

Look at the way he looks at you

No matter what happen next,

Trust me he has fallen for you

You got him :)

Live your life one step at the time,

Cheerish the moment

I miss you

2010-12-27T08:26:00.000-08:00

I miss you,

but I know you're having the time of your life right now,

Let's just wait and see what's next.

Because Im tired.

I give up,

Hide, dont run

2010-12-27T07:13:00.000-08:00

When put you through shitty times,

Pull your mask,

and hide.

Trust me it help

Although it's gonna hurt you more

Roar tiger roar!

2010-12-26T17:30:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was a nice day for local football lovers,

Malaysia fans and Man. Utd. fans

Both of them won!!

woot woot.

Well, Man. Utd. won over Sunderland is not an issue,

There was no green laser or any player threatening to leave the game.

Well, nice move guys.

But Malaysia winning over Indonesia is a very big issue.

In fact, the issue about Malaysia winning over Vietnam in the semi final is not even over yet.

Haiyaaaa, why la like that, I wish there is a law to forbid the emotional fans to watch any football match, menyusahkan org je.

haha, peace yaww.

I was a the match, and I can bet that the two goal from Safee is truly because of his and our player skills and good game plan.

I am not any football expect but I dont think the three

goal from Safee and Ashaari has anything to do with any laser either,

watch the video yourself,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8QyRv2VZ1g&feature=player_embedded#!

From what I see it was clearly the Indonesia defenders and goal keeper fault.

Anyways, how can they be so sure that the laser is from Malaysia Fans?

And even if it is from Malaysia,

It was the fans, the player played a good game.

I don't know why, but our team has been improving a looooot.

I like Safiq, a very good captain, I like the way he controls his team.

Sharul Idlan Talaha and Safee Sali is a very good striker, with great move

Muslim and Fadhli are cute awesome defenders , haha.

But my fav is Kunanlan. hikhikhik *blushing

Well, since Im a Malaysian of course I could only feel

the Malaysian side,

Anyhow, it is just a games,

I dont see why should we fight and call each other Malingsia or Indonesial,

Lets just be professional, and wait for the next match.

and I am still proud of our players :)

Harimau Muda

2010-12-26T07:11:00.001-08:00

'[2293] Of Malaysia needs to win in Jakarta to win morally

December 27th, 2010 by Hafiz Noor Shams

I am happy that the Malaysian soccer team beat Indonesia by a large margin in the first leg of the Suzuki Cup final. This is especially so when Malaysia was beaten by 5 goals to 1 earlier by Indonesia in the group stage. I am not a nationalist but the win tastes sweet nonetheless.

While I do believe that the team deserves the win — the play was surprising above the level Malaysia was typically associated with in the past — the 3-1 win in Kuala Lumpur is problematic.

Malaysian fans shot laser beam at Indonesian players. It was distracted and at some point of time, the Indonesian team rightly protested and appeared to threaten to leave the game. Indonesia certainly got off the pitch for more than 5 minutes in protest.

The Malaysian fans appeared to stop the unsportsmanlike behavior after the game resumed. It was after that the Malaysia overcame a crumbling Indonesian team.

The problem is that Indonesian fans are questioning the win, arguing that the laser beam incident somehow contributed to Malaysia’s win. In other words, Malaysia cheated.

I do not think Malaysia cheated. If I said Malaysia cheated, I would unfairly deny the effort the Malaysian players put into the game. The goals were fantastic. The first was clearly a mistake made by an Indonesia defender. He wanted the ball to go out but it did not. Malaysia capitalized on that. The second happened because Indonesia failed to mark Mohd Ashaari Shamsudin. The third was a good long pass that ended with the ball headed in. It were not just the goals that symbolize the effort. In the second half, as far as soccer layperson like me can tell, Malaysia made fantastic passes while defending excellently.

Nevertheless, I always believe the most satisfying win is one that is reasonably unquestionable. The 3-0 Malaysian win in Kuala Lumpur unfortunately is questionable.

As a result, I hold that Malaysia needs to win the second leg of the match that will be held in Jakarta. If Malaysia won the away match, then it would make the first controversial win irrelevant. A win for Malaysia in Jakarta would be satisfying and enough to silent the critics from Indonesia.

If Malaysia lost in Jakarta but won on aggregate, then Malaysia would lose morally. Even a draw for Malaysia will not do. The only way Malaysia can win the tournament as well as achieve a moral win is by defeating Indonesia on their own turf.

Hardcore

2010-12-23T10:31:00.000-08:00

My life has been in a roller coaster ride lately,

But Alhamdulillah,

I am bless enough and being guide by Him through out he way.

I have to admit,

There was a lot of ugly thoughts that passed through my head,

'I want to lock myself in my room'

'I want to run away from here'

'I want to stop socializing with my friends'

'When will I die?'

Yes, I was that depress.

And the worst part was,

I can't cry,

no matter how painful in was,

how lost I am,

I acted like everything was fine,

laugh as hard as I could but actually I was rotten inside.

I showed myself the worst of me,

and I ain't proud of that.

I was full with anger,

So full that I can't love anyone anymore,

If only I knew that anger are man eater,

Instead of liquid, I feel like Im full with anger,

Instead of skin, I feel like my biggest organ was anger,

Instaed of human, I feel like I am anger.

I stayed up that night,

thinking and wondering about how long I can last without killing myself,

because I knew I couldn't go on that way.

So I tried my best to remember the way and the side of me that I used to bring myself to where I am.

So here is my list

1. Try to think about others' side of story as well

2. Forgive and forget.

3. After every rain, there will be a beautiful rainbow

4. We are humans, just humans, with flaws.

So, Im getting better day by day.

Emotions are definitely a common visitor,

So Im training myself to get use to it.

And every time I start to lose control I remind myself that

On my way to heaven, Allah SWT wont be asking me what they did to me,

But what really matters is what I did to them.

because I realize that shitty times are the best times to show the world the best of me.

Since I've lost everything,

(at least I feel like I have)

Im going to start again at the square one,

My faith, my religion, my god.

Im turning myself to Him,

Because I believe that,

it is the only way to feel calm and happy in life.

Then, Im gonna help myself in being a better person.

A better daugther, sister,friend,leader and muslim.

Im so sorry it took me too long to collect myself together,

but please stay with me.

Oh December

2010-12-17T05:53:00.000-08:00

December is a very interesting month,

It has been my favourite since forever.

So the highlights of december until today is,

I went to watch Narnia with my sisters and brother.

I was very unlucky because I sat next to Bella my eldest sister

who knows nothing about Narnia.

So instead of watching the movie,

she watch the actor's nose, cloth and food.

Like that is the movie about.

and she kept asking me to pass her food,

but you know when I watch Narnia, nothing else matters.

So ignore her haha.

But she came up with a brilliant suggestion.

Naming our next brother or sister Narnia.

-.-

Then Yesterday I went to watch a football match with Nardine and Naseem,

It was awesome,

So many hot guys, we sat a the perfect place.

I really hope there will be another football match in bukit jalil soon,

I really like live games.

The noise and the armpit smell somehow is full with, er, joy.

Who to call?

2010-12-17T05:25:00.000-08:00

Im feeling down,

mood swing is a common visitor,

there are times when I feel I can go through this alone,

just keep smiling like I always did.

but most of the time ugly thoughts just keep taking over my mind.

I think I need to call someone.

I need to talk,

but it is written on my forehead that Im very bad at expressing my thought.

I'll end up bragging about something very boring.

That's just why I prefer to write,

emotion flow easier that way.

But a friend once told me my blog is full with emo posts,

So force myself to write in a book instead,

and that's why im thinking about turning this blog private.

because I prefer blogging.

I need somebody to listen,

I need to tell my story.

Because I've been keeping this to myself for so long.

I feel like a bomb that is about to burst.

but so scared that my friends will call me emo again.

So I plaster smiles and humour to myself,

and it feels numb.

I want call you,

but Im so scared that past becomes presents.

I dont want it to happen again.

I might not be able to handle it this time.

I dont want to run from you guys.

So im stuck at the question,

who the hell am I suspose to call?

Harry Potter

2010-11-18T19:14:00.000-08:00

And so I went to watch Harry Potter with my sisters and brothers yesterday,

The best part of that movie is Along slept and snored,

Angah kept on asking me for food,

Awine and Acim kept on asking me this and that.

So I didnt really have my own time with harry,

-.- xoxo korg.

Haish, harry potter and the deathly hallows part I.

It's not like the usual harry potter movies,

this time it's more to drama and less action,

I have to say,

my imagination was better,

haha, durzzz, my imagination doesn't cost any cent -.-

Looking forward for part II yaww,

can't wait to reread that book again.

How far will we make it

2010-11-18T19:08:00.000-08:00

FUNNY

2010-10-28T02:15:00.000-07:00

I know it is too small to be read, but click on the picture, I swear it is funny.

As we grow older

2010-10-14T00:12:00.000-07:00

We all have our own point of view,

You can take mine,

but dont force me to think like you.

And dont think that you have the best point of view ever.

Because I believe everybody is different,

And somewhere in this world people will appreciate them,

People might hail you here,

but try to go somewhere else,

people might throw shit to your face.

Alhamdulillah

2010-10-14T00:11:00.000-07:00

It's okay with me

2010-10-04T23:51:00.000-07:00

I got it form my father

2010-10-03T02:31:00.000-07:00

Abah, with his scandal.

xoxo abah, you're so cute.

Ma man.

2010-10-01T05:30:00.000-07:00

Hahaha, too bad fatihin, I loves him too.

Dont worry, a man can have 4 wives.

I really reallly really like guys that have their own thing.

They dont get the fashion, the trend or anything that people said get into their head,

I love guys with hardcore.

And funny man is such an additional points

Listen

2010-10-01T05:04:00.000-07:00

My friends,

There are times when I want to hug you girls,

Tell you you're safe,

Tell you that Im there for you anytime,

I'll stand by you,

Be with you whether you're flying or falling.

I'll stand by you even if you're wrong,

Even if it's you against the world.

I know there are times when I was really mad,

Said and do things that I regret doings,

I am very sorry.

I love you guys even if you always make fun of me,

Even if you talk behind my back,

Even if you dont like pink.

Because I know,

this is life and nothing is perfect.

But you girls are the closest to perfect so far.

So if I were allowed to have a tatto,

and if it would not effect my health,

I will definately have 'TBOF' at the bak of my right palm,

where I'' see if everyday.

PS/ Im not a lesbian. XX

Dreams

2010-10-01T04:22:00.000-07:00

Im most of my dreams, I was running,

Running away,

Running towards something,

Running because Im too impatient to walk.

A lot of different reasons,

But I was running.

I remember when I was 13,

I told Ayiesha,

When I grow up, Ill run everyday.

Because running is the only way I feel secure, sa

fe and free.

But in my dreams,

everytime I run,

I end up flying.

In my dreams. I flew.

2010-09-29T02:22:00.000-07:00

Useless boys

2010-09-29T02:13:00.000-07:00

Truth to be told, I a girl,

Im a women,

I am female,

Im strong,

but Im fragile.

I know there are times when I act so brutal,

heartless and held my head high up,

but I still go to bed at night with dreams that sounds a lot like a fairytales,

I have dreams,

Fantasy,

Best of all, I have plans.

Please, dont give me any hope any more.

because you words are as good as shit.

Nadiaaa

2010-09-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

Nadia is braceface no moreeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Sekarang baru kembar balik. Hahaha

You got me wondering

2010-09-29T01:40:00.000-07:00

My Idol

2010-09-28T05:07:00.000-07:00

Answer me!

2010-09-28T05:00:00.000-07:00

Sorry I disagree on the part that someone who treated us badly will be in our heart always,

Though we wont realize that we hate them on the day they hurt us,

One day I believe everyone will wake up and had enough.

For me

2010-09-23T06:08:00.000-07:00

you are not a bird,

if you cant fly,

neither do I

You, yourself and your brain.

2010-09-23T05:45:00.000-07:00

I grow up in Kl,

Im not proud of it nor ashamed as well,

It is just a fact that I cant change.

Im 17 years old,

there are days when I feel like Im 40, 13, 8, and

12.

But I guess most of the time I dont feel 17.

When I was 12 I acted 8 but wanted to be 16.

But since I was 13 onwards,

I feel like I aged 1 year older in 1 week,

It was due to the pain and all the hardness in life that I went through,

But I have never look back and wanted to changed anything,

Even the day my favourite biy left me,

Or the day I told my sisters I hate them and how I wish they were not there.

On the other hand,

Im thankful that I did that,

It makes me realise that I would never let anyone treat me like a toy anymore,

or just how much I loves my sisters and wish Im with them all the time.

I dont know what's gonna happen next,

what kind of solid air the I have to breathe,

but Im just gonna keep my head held high,

Because I know even if I dont want it,

There will still be tomorrow

Alhamdulillah

2010-09-17T06:39:00.000-07:00

Count your blessing once in a while.

So you'll happy my friend :)

Help me

2010-09-03T09:56:00.000-07:00

Why am I so lost?

Ya Allah,

please help me through,

because I so scared and sad,

Please help me choose the choices,

Ya Allah,

guide me so I wont regret a thing,

Ya Allah,

Please, help me be a better muslim,

a better daughter,

a better sister,

a friend,

a better leader.

Because Im nothing and useless without you.

Help me, Ya, Malikul Mulk.

One day

2010-08-28T15:40:00.000-07:00

On my wedding day,

I want my girls to be by my side,

I wanna have 5 pengapit,

haha, Ok, maybe they will not like this idea,

but I would like to see them wear the same dress,

or baju kurung,

In my imagination,

ayiesha will be the one with high heels and looks like she's walking on a runway,

Elydia will make it simple and nice, er, and a little open I have to say,

Nadia, will make it look soft but not girlish,

and Fatihin, will wear it with a pretty tudung and with the warmest smile I've seen,

So that when I walk myself to the pelamin,

I know, besides my husband,

Im also gonna spend my life annoying, laughing and loving them :)

Because you're my friend :)

2010-08-26T11:38:00.000-07:00

When I was hurting,

there was nothing that anyone can do to make me feel better,

but honestly posting something for me actually helped.

I've said this so many times,

but you're one of the wises and strongest 17 year old girl I've known.

Seriously, I know you'll through this,

You'll just gonna get some brilliant idea on how to solve this problem,

and when the time comes,

you'll stand tall again.

Im sure you will.

What he did to me was nothing like what he did to you,

So I may not understand the feeling,

you feelings.

but I know that very feeling very well,

the what-the-hell-was-the-hopes-for-? feeling.

but trust me, one day, you'll wake up and realise,

you have a lot more in your life,

your blessing are countless,

you gonna meet a lot more new guys out there,

they may not be the same,

they might not be as good,

but there's a thick chance, they may be better.

I dont have the right to tell you this,

because I think you can consult yourself better than I do,

So let's just take it this way,

There's reasons why Allah wants it to be this way.

And He's the best decider of all the decider.

And fatihin is right on,

we should feel every feeling at least once,

The reason Im posting you this is,

just to remind you,

that I love you,

TBOF loves you,

We're always by your side,

Even if it's you against the world (ok tak psl psl)

and that is one of the greatest blessing of ours.

So push it too hard,

Let it be,

let it lose,

cry all you want,

don't force yourself to move on,

because from what I learn,

It is easier if you work with time and let it heal you.

xoxo baby G

Hardest

2010-08-19T11:39:00.000-07:00

Im willing to take Add math question a thousand time rather than answering the

'WHAT-THE-HEEL-HAPPENED-TO-ME?' question

It is the hardest so far

I have a huge problem

2010-08-19T11:12:00.000-07:00

"I am a pathetic ex-mistress that can't even sleep at night"

I want to tell me friends,

about everything,

but I dont know how,

Because I dont want blame anyone,

Nor I dont want to hurt anyone,

Im pretty sure when I put it in word,

It wont come out the way I want it to.

So as long as I can't,

I'll keep it to myself,

Not that I like it,

It's eating me

So true

2010-08-18T05:58:00.000-07:00

She's writing my mind,

Im always wish I have fatihin's collection,

Haha, and nadia comics I have to say.

When Im exam free,

I love to follow my mother to work and spend the whole day at kino,

Oh yes, I love bookstore,

Since I couldn't afford to buy storybooks,

I'll just read it for free,

I love getting lost in the story,

and the feeling when I stop reading,

like, eh, I didn't realize this and that.

Like avatar,

my real life is not real.

Oh, when I grow up,

I wanna buy at least 1 book a week.

And have my own library :)

We had our times

2010-08-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

Can I have rainbow on a plate?

So I'll be happy everytime I eat?

Hihi, mestilah, all the time baby

Trust me, she's lying

2010-08-17T05:50:00.000-07:00

Face the Fact

2010-08-17T05:17:00.000-07:00

No matter how long it take for you to heal,

You know you're the best male friend I've ever have,

And Im always here to talk about your day.

We both know we miss each other.

You know no matter who's my best friend now,

We'll never talk to each other about future as naive as we did,

They could never give me the feeling like what you gave to me,

It's an old comfort good feeling,

hmm :)

I've never really feel that feeling until it's gone.

Things is not the same now,

but the memories remains unchange :)

Im not a big fan of him

2010-08-17T01:18:00.000-07:00

Im a big fan of thoughtful people

I need to take care of me

2010-08-05T09:55:00.000-07:00

It is so bright over there,

So there's a thick chance that you can't see what's happening over here,

It is dark anyways.

Im that type of girl you know,

the type of girl who make stupid faces in the mirror just to make myself laugh,

who talks to the birds and trees while walking alone to the LRT station,

Who's not afraid to make stupid jokes and laugh by myself,

Who says hai to everyone in that school.

When I was,

my parents even called me happy child.

But when you let me down,

and make my cry,

You make me hate the crowd,

I have nothing but silent,

It's hard to even smile,

I lay on the floor for hours,

It's like im moving in slow motion and everyone else around me is moving so fast,

Like I have this miserable disease, that will affect everyone around me,

So I prefer to be alone.

I dont know who's that girl,

I dont know how to be her,

I dont like being her.

So it's okay if you dont care about my feelings,

It's okay if you want to laugh so loud while I cry,

It's okay if you choose to go away and search for the fun,

because you can't have it with me,

It's okay, if you call me with names,

take away my self confidence,

or spread rumours about me.

But I have to take care of myself,

my feelings,

my self confidence.

I need to.

I can't have you let me down forever.

I'll just gonna hug myself, even when nobody will.

Im that type of girl you see.

You have the best of me

2010-08-05T06:42:00.000-07:00

It's okay if you want to shout at me every night,
Or blame me for every mistakes,
Or laugh with my sisters and ignore me.
Treat me like a maid,
Or any other thing that you feel like doing.
I wont hate you I promise,
I will always love you with all my heart I promise.

But I cant promise that I wont cry,
I have my break point too.

Im just gonna smile and laugh like every other people,
because this pain has effect me for more than 5 years,
so somehow, Im immune to it already,

And from the books and movies,
I know you love me too.
I believe in that,
though you've didn't really show,
I want to believe in that,
That's my way of surviving