Im just saying

First thing first, let me make it clear,

I am not being emotional,

I am being thoughtful and sensitive.

You know how the silent midnight air can shout the truth to you?

Well, it's 12.45 in the morning my dear readers.

I love to write, I really love to write.

And it doesn't bother if nobody is reading.

because writing my my way to understand and to gather my thoughts, opinions and feelings.

I am a girl.

Like any other girls, I tend to over think, over react, and over emotional.

But thanks to that,

we are able to fall in love with the stupidest boy alive.

I dont know what about the other girls,

but once Im in love or even have a crush on someone,

I tend to live in my imagination and fantasy world.

The world where the boy is perfect,

where you're able to make so many excuses for the boy's mistakes,

believing that he is what you think he is,

instead of what what he actually is.

Believing that he'll treat you right,

love you right.

Even if he has a heart like a devil,

It that world, I'll believe that he never meant to hurt me.

I'll give him a lot of new chances,

bcs in my imagination, we are happy together.

If and only if we are able to live in that world forever than pain wont found us,

because what really hurt is when we start to see the doors to reality,

When we realise, the boy chose to hurt us,

played with our feelings because it wont hurt him if we are hur

ting.

The excuses we've made for him is a waste of time,

The chances was a vain.

And what I hate the most is to realize,

that the boy is not the boy I thought he is.

It for me is among the most painful truth.

Once we chose to stop believing our imagination and fantasy,

We start to realize what a fool we were.

and just how we should protect ourselves more instead of protecting the relationship this is not real.

We force ourselves to move on, try to defeat time.

we should have take it easy, one step at the time, work with time.

And to move on is not about forgetting everything,

it's about having the past that doesn't effect us anymore.

but again we over think, over react and being over emotional.

And for me,

You'll get the best view of situation, when you are not in the situation.

Listen to what others have to say, and stop making excuse for the boy.

But most importantly, listen to you heart,

because it will tell you when will enough be enough.

Im just saying,

Every girl hope for a boy to fall in love with,

to laugh with, to trust too.

To feel safe with, to have a deep conversation with.

To have nice happy ending with.

But most of the time,

it only happens in our head.

but we'll survive.

Believe in Allah,

Belive that He knows what's the best for us :)

A women's heart is like a deep ocean