Hi Anuar

Hi Anuar,

It has been 8 months, since we broke up. Oh what can these 8 months do comparing the 7 years we grew together. Ive been thinking about you a lot lately,

Like really alot. I mean, all the time.

I really, really hope youre doing fine. Truth is, the past 7 months all i can think of is all the bad things, all the things that went wrong, that made me came up with the decision the call it off, but lately, all the good memories keep coming back. Only the good ones. And they're very good.

You're right. Apa yg raa buat tu kejam. Kejam sangat, it didnt do justice to the years we have spent together. I didnt give you a proper ending, and now its all coming back to me. But I know, I cant find you now to explain, you dont want to hear it anymore, I should have done it when you asked. Im 8 months too late.

There are a few things Ive learnt about us only after I left. I've learnt, you really really loved me, didnt you, I was your world. You meant it when you said you love me more. You meant it when you said you wont give up on my, but i made you too. Im sorry I took these things for granted. Im sorry I took you for granted.

I was scared of the future with you. I was terrified of the idea of taking a son away from his mother, but i couldnt imagine myself moving to another state, to a total different environment, different culture, and the thought of needing to live with MIL scares me. I couldnt understand the struggle you and youre family were going through, and i thought i wont fit in with your family. Months before the breaking up, i was so convince we have ran out of love.

I had my struggle, new job, new house, new life, and you were stuck at where you were. We both got carried away w our own life, we forgot to love each other. I didnt see you for 5 months, and 3 months before that. For once after 7 years, we had to live our own lives, not together. and i drifted away, I am sorry. 

When I was excited for something, you saw the flaws, and when you were excited, I thought its stupid. We were killing each other's energy. And I got tired, Im sorry.

When we were together, I really really did love you. Back when it was us against the world, we really made a very very powerful duo. You were my remedy and I was yours. Look at where it got us, we got our degree and master together, started a new business, explore so many new places. Together we had such a good young love. Until adulthood hits us,

You, Anuar, will always be apart of me. 7 years of my life were spent with you. It was a very good 7 years. Thank you, and Im sorry. I sorry I give up on us, Im sorry didnt fight when you asked me too. And above all, Im sorry I left when you needed me most. Im gonna have to live with the guilt for the rest of my life. but I hope you'll move on. I hope, you'll be the person you've always wanted to be, Ive said it, and I meant it, and I really do believe, you'll turn out good.

You will forever be, my young love. Goodbye bay <3 p="">