Im trying to be a better person.

Ya Allah,

Help me, please.

Lim Kah Yan

Isn't she's like the cutest 17 years old girl?

For me she is :)

AND NOW, IT'S HER BIRTHDAY!!!!

hoho, of course Im happy,

she's like my ho ho, bestfriend :D

So, I would like to wish her all the best in life,

*cough, your boyfriend cough*

You can control you're anger very well,

wish for me it the best thing about you

Hehe, I Love you Kah Yan.

And I know you love me too.

Long Live Kah Yan!

Boy, you need to slow down

The blood is still bloody,

The pain is still real,

So dont expect much from me,

Bcs there are some emotions that I cant reveal.

You maybe the one,

You may not,

But first I have to stand,

and erase these thoughts.

Tell me about it

"No matter how close you are with someone,

you will never know everything about them''

Ahh, you know when you're sleeping,

suddenly you're wake,

with birds around your head,

you try to figure out,

where you're are,

what's the time,

why you're sleeping,

why you're awake,

Where is everyone else.

And then you're mind wonders around,

you start to feel sad about things

that have never bothered you before,

As for me,

I've never bothered about things I dont have.

I dont mind handling the temptation of delivious food,

bcs of my empty pocket.

I know there will food for me once I reach home.

That is already a blessing.

I dont mind not having someone to fetch me from school, tuition, or anywhere

I can use the LRT,

I can walk myself home,

that is also already a blessing,

Im not scared of getting lost alone in the middle of the city,

just bcs I accidently slept in the train or bus

I'll find the way back myself

Like I've always did.

Bcs Im able too,

So Alhamdulillah.

So, though Im a little sad,

For something that I want really bad,

Something that I wont tell bcs nobody will understand why.

Except for my sister maybe, Nazreen.

Bcs things are not the same.

You see, there's difference between families and housemates

but I cant tell.

So despite that, I know this is just another night thoughts of mine,

and it is not important,

It will go away tomorrow,

But hnstly, Alhamdulillah

Alhamdulillah.

Kempen peparangi sifat masmudah

Say no to back stabbing!

Say no to dramas!

Say no to lies!

Say hell yeah to friendship!

No matter how hard it is,

you have to choose the thing you need instead of the thing you like.

Chooooooooo,

Say I dont want to fall in love right now especially to the wrong guy!

Okay, selesai berkempen,

boleh buat lk, exam kan exam,

(padahal dari tadi ckp mcm tu)

Omgpop is killing me. I hate you nadia.

should not let me play it at your house the other day,

Whenever anyone fails on you

Sorry ayiesha, I took it for your blog.

ps/ cuba tgk shu xian kat blkng tu, lolzz

I've blog about them for so many times already,

But I'm gonna blog about it again

When we were younger, we were the same. I mean, kalau sorg ckp babi, smua nk ckp babi, sorg

benci barbie, semua benci barbie. But as we grow up, we starts to have our own point of view, our own thing. Ayiesha is very into clothes bazaar, shoes and rings. Nadia loves exotic animals. Fatihin likes to cook and gives us cupcakes for our birthday, Elydia, as always, with her own world. As for me, searching for my own path too. Im starting with square 1, my religion.

I can see the difference in everyone honestly. Ayiesha loves the brothes, family more as time pass, Nadia starts to talk with strangers, have the confidence she should have and loves me more. Fatihin, she do not hate her brother anymore and is not afraid to tell the world what she believes in. Elydia, elydia is elydia, sometimes she's transparent but most of the time she likes to keep things to herself.

I've once write in my diary, yes I have a diary. I wrote

" We, tbof are like magnets. We are very different from each other, the things we likes, our backgrounds like north pole and south. Difference attracts, that's the reason we are so close. Though we are different, we are still magnets"

Trust me, It's the mouse.

Ego brings you no where

The feeling when you wont do something that is against the 'rules', like,

Girls should not make a move.

Girls should be girly.

Boys should be the man.

Girls are always weaker

You might thing, screw that,no one cares. But secretly, you dont want to make a move either. I have friends who really holds on that 'rule' I dont know, I think maybe you should give some hint, it-is-not-obvious-that-you-are-flirting thing, but dont go to that guy and say 'Weh jom couple' It is brutal, brave, but also scary.

'Girls should be girly' hurrrmm, Just because you loves pink it makes you a girl or vice versa. Ceh, ayat cm nk buat hypothesis physics je. Like my friend nadia once said, 'Im a girl, but Im not girly'. So There is nothing wrong with a girl who likes to go scuba diving, rock clambing, plays paintball, panjat gunung kinabalu, karaoke at red box with her friends sambil makan bersepah, or ice skating. Truth to be told, ladylike does not exist, it's more like a man's dream. *puke*

Just because you're born male, it doesnt make you a man. And now, woman dont wait for man to bring back meat for dinner anymore, we hunt it ourselves. So 'man' now days has a whole new meaning. Girls dont seek for protection from man anymore. Dalam taekwando, silat, karate kat sekolah pun lagi ramai perempuan. Lelaki, masuk PBSM, main doktor-doktor. Tak pun tak masuk CC je.

Like I said, the different between men and women nowdays is just testis and uterus. Boobies pun dah ramai yang buat plastic surgery.