I need to take care of me

It is so bright over there,

So there's a thick chance that you can't see what's happening over here,

It is dark anyways.

Im that type of girl you know,

the type of girl who make stupid faces in the mirror just to make myself laugh,

who talks to the birds and trees while walking alone to the LRT station,

Who's not afraid to make stupid jokes and laugh by myself,

Who says hai to everyone in that school.

When I was,

my parents even called me happy child.

But when you let me down,

and make my cry,

You make me hate the crowd,

I have nothing but silent,

It's hard to even smile,

I lay on the floor for hours,

It's like im moving in slow motion and everyone else around me is moving so fast,

Like I have this miserable disease, that will affect everyone around me,

So I prefer to be alone.

I dont know who's that girl,

I dont know how to be her,

I dont like being her.

So it's okay if you dont care about my feelings,

It's okay if you want to laugh so loud while I cry,

It's okay if you choose to go away and search for the fun,

because you can't have it with me,

It's okay, if you call me with names,

take away my self confidence,

or spread rumours about me.

But I have to take care of myself,

my feelings,

my self confidence.

I need to.

I can't have you let me down forever.

I'll just gonna hug myself, even when nobody will.

Im that type of girl you see.