Who to call?

Im feeling down,

mood swing is a common visitor,

there are times when I feel I can go through this alone,

just keep smiling like I always did.

but most of the time ugly thoughts just keep taking over my mind.

I think I need to call someone.

I need to talk,

but it is written on my forehead that Im very bad at expressing my thought.

I'll end up bragging about something very boring.

That's just why I prefer to write,

emotion flow easier that way.

But a friend once told me my blog is full with emo posts,

So force myself to write in a book instead,

and that's why im thinking about turning this blog private.

because I prefer blogging.

I need somebody to listen,

I need to tell my story.

Because I've been keeping this to myself for so long.

I feel like a bomb that is about to burst.

but so scared that my friends will call me emo again.

So I plaster smiles and humour to myself,

and it feels numb.

I want call you,

but Im so scared that past becomes presents.

I dont want it to happen again.

I might not be able to handle it this time.

I dont want to run from you guys.

So im stuck at the question,

who the hell am I suspose to call?