Result SPM

I am mentally so tired,
but I have to write,
while it's still fresh.

Honestly, I was not scared at all yesterday,
I was excited last week.
I mean,
I just wanted it be over,
after 3 months of waiting.

But what I had in mind was 3a's

but when I woke up this morning,
I couldn't get up from bed,
After subuh, I went straight to bed and I was numb,
I hide under my blanket and close my eyes shut.

I couldn't sleep but I was to scared to open my eyes,
I know dramatic much,
but then my abah came and pull me out of bed,
he said that he is so excited and he wants to be there early.
haih, nasib aku sayang.

I wore the outfit that I wore 3 days ago,
the ones that I forgot to put into washing machine,
so, yeah, I wore a very lousy outfits.

Once I reach school, it was nice, to finally meet everyone again,
But it was so scary as well.

then they announced the students that gets straight A's,
I waited, but it was a no for me,
I was, not-yet-dissapointed.
All that I could think about was,
'WHAT IS MY RESULT THEN?'

Last2 dpt 7A 2B,
Alhamdulillah, but at first I cried so hard,
I dont understand why either,
I think I was just so shocked+grateful+frustrated.

Then we (nadia, ayiesha, eldyia, fatihin) went to redbox,
to shout it all off.

While 5 of us was singing,
Muna, Phillip, Eric Sayang, and a lot more came in.
We sang what's my name-rihanna,
and then they left.

After that, we sing, shout, dance it all off,
all the frustration, disappointment, and fear.

I was keeping it all inside,
the fact that I missed cumi so bad,
I kept on looking at my phone,
reminding myself not to call her,
but I broke down in redbox.
I swear I almost heard she should
"congrats dikra! nanti cumi kasi hadiah"

Anyways,
Alhamdulillah.
Everything went well.
:)

About my result,
that would be in another post,
as for now,
i am just so tired.