Hijab

I met an old friend,
a few days ago.
She asked me,
"what makes you want to were hijab?"


It makes me wonder,
what made me move?


Then, I remember a question from a non-muslim friend that ask me a few years a ago,
"Nadira, sorry aa, I just want to know, why so many muslim girls dont want to wear tudung? I mean, when you guys dont even want to listen to your god, your religion, how are we going to listen to you?''
If you're offended, im sorry, but this girl over here got a point.

Well it is almost 2 years now since I chose to cover up,
I must say and I wont lie,
That there are times when Im choosing my clothes,
I have these thoughts,
"La, it would be better if I wear it like these"
"I dont know how to match this colors"
"Ish, it wont be this hard if i dont wear hijab"


But these thoughts, are just, thoughts.
We're just humans, and there's satan.
If you could block them, ignore them, hold your iman,
InsyaAllah, you'll be able to walk out of your house,
in peace,
knowing you're one step closer to Allah swt.

And sayangs,
hijab wont change you.
You're still the same person.
With the same mind and dreams.
It is just a change in the way you dress up.

In fact, after awhile,
it doesnt really bring that much of a different.
Plus, you'll feel safe and secure.

What really matters is your attitude.
You way to bring yourself to the world.
Once you've covered up,
Everything else comes together, InsyaAllah
As long as you're doing it for Allah swt.

What Im trying to say is,
Hijab dont determines who you are,
but it helps determines whether you'll be able to go to heaven or not.
Give it a try,
It is not a burden,
I promise.

Back to Mozac.

Assalamualaikum readers!

Well, I had a little conflict yesterday,

my high school held their annual cross country yesterday,

or better known as merentas desa,

I wanted to go back,

reminisce some old memories, 

with some old people.

BUT,

my family had another plan.

They wanted to go visit my baby sister at mozac, melaka.

They were having same carnival,

where every class sent a representatives,

to sell food for parents that came, 

there were also some performance during the night.

I guess, it was a right choice to go there,

it is a new fresh air,

To see how kids form sekolah asrama spend their high school lives,

Im from a normal, daily school you see.

All in all, congrats mozacians,

you should be proud.

Meet Hana !!

Well, Salam & hello everyone!

I wouldlike to share this happy news with everyone,

I get a new cousin recently,

People say hello to *drum rolls* HANA!

She is just 1 month old, 

she turned 1 month yesterday.

But she is shorter than 1/2 of my leg!

Well this is still acceptable,

but she is also shorter than my father's arm :O

Which is why she is such a sweetheart. She's a darling, a magic.

Well, I personally call her lazy bum, cause she's constantly sleeping! 

But whenever she sleep in my arms,

fush, its magical. 

As if the world is a happy place, 

and nobody will harm anyone.

Okay, dramatic, I know.

But once she's awake, 

she likes to make funny faces,

Well according to the facts,

Baby her age cant see anything yet,

So I assume, she didnt realize that she's actually awake.

Hahaha :D

My little sleeping beauty :D

I wish I could bring  her home, 

cause Im missing her already,

Urgh, she is so,

soft, and fragile, 

and ridiculusly cute :I

Anyways, welcome to the family hana!

Just dont grow that fast okayyy? :D

My dreams

With no doubt this is what I want to do.
Architecture,
As long as I can remember, this is definitely what I want to do.

But Im not sure if this is what I want to do for living.
I want to be an architect, I really do.
But to imagine,
living 30 years of my life,
working day till night,
doesnt feel right.

Truth is, Im a lady.
I want to be a mother,
I want to be there for my husband.
but, I dont want to be too dependent on anyone.
And if i have to earn my own money,
this is how i want to do it.

I know, I know,
It's too early for me talk or even think about this,
But I couldnt help to think about this,
everytime I get off late from the studio.

But anyways, I know,
right now Im the right track,
As for the future,
Im living one day on a time.

Let's stop.

All this games,
Feelings we're playing,
Lets stop.

Cause I might be falling for you.
And you wont be there to catch.
So, dont play me.

You're a nice,
good-looking,
alim,
almost perfect guy.

I've been drawing lines,
limit myself from you,
but I might get over board these days,

So, as im pulling back.
I begging,
Dont play me.

Shmily.

'If You ask me, how Im doing?

I would say Im doing just fine,

I would lie and say that your not on my mind'

'In another life,

I would be you girl,

We'll keep all our promises,

be us against the world.'

I can only imagine how painful these songs are.

Studio Life

We got the studio for less than a week.

But I really love it.

I know it is so small for 60 people,

and we have to clean  and rearrange the table very often,

because we're having our class at the same place, same table.

But anyways,

I really love it.

I guess because it is so small we all get real close,

Those who have never talk before,

Hangs around together,

Those that never laugh,

crack the funniest random jokes.

We tend to get closer but trying to move away,

hahaha, I mean, it can be quite annoying when you have 5 different type, language & genre of song injust 1 small room with 60 people,

sorg nak pasang korea,

sorg nak rock kapak,

sorg nak bieber,

sorg nak avenge sevenfold,

mmg payah weh.

But I wouldnt trade it with anything else,

I love just the way it is :)