I miss you

I miss you,

but I know you're having the time of your life right now,

Let's just wait and see what's next.

Because Im tired.

I give up,

Hide, dont run

When put you through shitty times,

Pull your mask,

and hide.

Trust me it help

Although it's gonna hurt you more

Roar tiger roar!

Yesterday was a nice day for local football lovers,

Malaysia fans and Man. Utd. fans

Both of them won!!

woot woot.

Well, Man. Utd. won over Sunderland is not an issue,

There was no green laser or any player threatening to leave the game.

Well, nice move guys.

But Malaysia winning over Indonesia is a very big issue.

In fact, the issue about Malaysia winning over Vietnam in the semi final is not even over yet.

Haiyaaaa, why la like that, I wish there is a law to forbid the emotional fans to watch any football match, menyusahkan org je.

haha, peace yaww.

I was a the match, and I can bet that the two goal from Safee is truly because of his and our player skills and good game plan.

I am not any football expect but I dont think the three

goal from Safee and Ashaari has anything to do with any laser either,

watch the video yourself,

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=r8QyRv2VZ1g&feature=player_embedded#!

From what I see it was clearly the Indonesia defenders and goal keeper fault.

Anyways, how can they be so sure that the laser is from Malaysia Fans?

And even if it is from Malaysia,

It was the fans, the player played a good game.

I don't know why, but our team has been improving a looooot.

I like Safiq, a very good captain, I like the way he controls his team.

Sharul Idlan Talaha and Safee Sali is a very good striker, with great move

Muslim and Fadhli are cute awesome defenders , haha.

But my fav is Kunanlan. hikhikhik *blushing

Well, since Im a Malaysian of course I could only feel

the Malaysian side,

Anyhow, it is just a games,

I dont see why should we fight and call each other Malingsia or Indonesial,

Lets just be professional, and wait for the next match.

and I am still proud of our players :)

Harimau Muda

'[2293] Of Malaysia needs to win in Jakarta to win morally

December 27th, 2010 by Hafiz Noor Shams

I am happy that the Malaysian soccer team beat Indonesia by a large margin in the first leg of the Suzuki Cup final. This is especially so when Malaysia was beaten by 5 goals to 1 earlier by Indonesia in the group stage. I am not a nationalist but the win tastes sweet nonetheless.

While I do believe that the team deserves the win — the play was surprising above the level Malaysia was typically associated with in the past — the 3-1 win in Kuala Lumpur is problematic.

Malaysian fans shot laser beam at Indonesian players. It was distracted and at some point of time, the Indonesian team rightly protested and appeared to threaten to leave the game. Indonesia certainly got off the pitch for more than 5 minutes in protest.

The Malaysian fans appeared to stop the unsportsmanlike behavior after the game resumed. It was after that the Malaysia overcame a crumbling Indonesian team.

The problem is that Indonesian fans are questioning the win, arguing that the laser beam incident somehow contributed to Malaysia’s win. In other words, Malaysia cheated.

I do not think Malaysia cheated. If I said Malaysia cheated, I would unfairly deny the effort the Malaysian players put into the game. The goals were fantastic. The first was clearly a mistake made by an Indonesia defender. He wanted the ball to go out but it did not. Malaysia capitalized on that. The second happened because Indonesia failed to mark Mohd Ashaari Shamsudin. The third was a good long pass that ended with the ball headed in. It were not just the goals that symbolize the effort. In the second half, as far as soccer layperson like me can tell, Malaysia made fantastic passes while defending excellently.

Nevertheless, I always believe the most satisfying win is one that is reasonably unquestionable. The 3-0 Malaysian win in Kuala Lumpur unfortunately is questionable.

As a result, I hold that Malaysia needs to win the second leg of the match that will be held in Jakarta. If Malaysia won the away match, then it would make the first controversial win irrelevant. A win for Malaysia in Jakarta would be satisfying and enough to silent the critics from Indonesia.

If Malaysia lost in Jakarta but won on aggregate, then Malaysia would lose morally. Even a draw for Malaysia will not do. The only way Malaysia can win the tournament as well as achieve a moral win is by defeating Indonesia on their own turf.

Hardcore

My life has been in a roller coaster ride lately,

But Alhamdulillah,

I am bless enough and being guide by Him through out he way.

I have to admit,

There was a lot of ugly thoughts that passed through my head,

'I want to lock myself in my room'

'I want to run away from here'

'I want to stop socializing with my friends'

'When will I die?'

Yes, I was that depress.

And the worst part was,

I can't cry,

no matter how painful in was,

how lost I am,

I acted like everything was fine,

laugh as hard as I could but actually I was rotten inside.

I showed myself the worst of me,

and I ain't proud of that.

I was full with anger,

So full that I can't love anyone anymore,

If only I knew that anger are man eater,

Instead of liquid, I feel like Im full with anger,

Instead of skin, I feel like my biggest organ was anger,

Instaed of human, I feel like I am anger.

I stayed up that night,

thinking and wondering about how long I can last without killing myself,

because I knew I couldn't go on that way.

So I tried my best to remember the way and the side of me that I used to bring myself to where I am.

So here is my list

1. Try to think about others' side of story as well

2. Forgive and forget.

3. After every rain, there will be a beautiful rainbow

4. We are humans, just humans, with flaws.

So, Im getting better day by day.

Emotions are definitely a common visitor,

So Im training myself to get use to it.

And every time I start to lose control I remind myself that

On my way to heaven, Allah SWT wont be asking me what they did to me,

But what really matters is what I did to them.

because I realize that shitty times are the best times to show the world the best of me.

Since I've lost everything,

(at least I feel like I have)

Im going to start again at the square one,

My faith, my religion, my god.

Im turning myself to Him,

Because I believe that,

it is the only way to feel calm and happy in life.

Then, Im gonna help myself in being a better person.

A better daugther, sister,friend,leader and muslim.

Im so sorry it took me too long to collect myself together,

but please stay with me.

Oh December

December is a very interesting month,

It has been my favourite since forever.

So the highlights of december until today is,

I went to watch Narnia with my sisters and brother.

I was very unlucky because I sat next to Bella my eldest sister

who knows nothing about Narnia.

So instead of watching the movie,

she watch the actor's nose, cloth and food.

Like that is the movie about.

and she kept asking me to pass her food,

but you know when I watch Narnia, nothing else matters.

So ignore her haha.

But she came up with a brilliant suggestion.

Naming our next brother or sister Narnia.

-.-

Then Yesterday I went to watch a football match with Nardine and Naseem,

It was awesome,

So many hot guys, we sat a the perfect place.

I really hope there will be another football match in bukit jalil soon,

I really like live games.

The noise and the armpit smell somehow is full with, er, joy.

Who to call?

Im feeling down,

mood swing is a common visitor,

there are times when I feel I can go through this alone,

just keep smiling like I always did.

but most of the time ugly thoughts just keep taking over my mind.

I think I need to call someone.

I need to talk,

but it is written on my forehead that Im very bad at expressing my thought.

I'll end up bragging about something very boring.

That's just why I prefer to write,

emotion flow easier that way.

But a friend once told me my blog is full with emo posts,

So force myself to write in a book instead,

and that's why im thinking about turning this blog private.

because I prefer blogging.

I need somebody to listen,

I need to tell my story.

Because I've been keeping this to myself for so long.

I feel like a bomb that is about to burst.

but so scared that my friends will call me emo again.

So I plaster smiles and humour to myself,

and it feels numb.

I want call you,

but Im so scared that past becomes presents.

I dont want it to happen again.

I might not be able to handle it this time.

I dont want to run from you guys.

So im stuck at the question,

who the hell am I suspose to call?